~Silence-ofaDarkHeart

Yep its band camp week. Woohoo. So far I have a nice tan (i love my heritage, i don't burn) lost a few pounds, and possibly twisted my knee.

Anyways I have a lot of drawings, completed and a few even colored with a full background and everything. But being the lazy bones I am, nothing is posted. I also have a meme that I've been working on for like a month now. But atlas i am lazy and its band camp week so I get maybe a few hours in the evening to do stuff before I crash and wake up in the morning.

AND I still haven't been able to read Breaking Dawn or the Host. I still have to finish Watt and Moby Dick before school starts and I'm running out of days. I hate this.

so that's my brief update. yay me.

Wow. I happened to be viewing my profile yesterday on my new laptop (courtesy of my birthday Monday) and I had 1,502 hits. I haven't been trying kirbans and I kinda forgot the one for for 1400.

Maybe I should in the future? Am I that popular? Cause that would rock.

So the holidays are around the corner. Although I am looking forward to Christmas and being able to spend it with all my family, it is also when I have no time with mid-terms, winter concerts, and such.

Now I have been neglecting my dA account for some time now. I still draw but nothing seems to come out right. It's like having artist block and flu, when I do come up with something it looks vaguely like snot. Ok maybe that's too much of an exaggeration, but the point is still clear. I love looking back and seeing my progress, its part of the season of reflecting, but in these past months I feel as though I have nothing to show for it. And it sucks.

Because of this whatever plans I make for releasing comic strips are being pushed back. Lack of motivation, audience, and time has led to me dropping some projects that I grew fond of.

It just makes me feel empty, ya know? Not being able to do something I have been doing for a long time. And not knowing whether its just a phase or the new future. Art is my life. If that goes what do I have left?

I'd like to end this on a more positive note but I'm not sure what I could say. Probably only two people will even read this and tomorrow will come and I might feel better. I might not. Everything is just too confusing.

I hope you all have a great holiday season, I don't know when I will post stuff again. But don't hold your breath.

Ok. I caved and got a new account because the absolute villainy regarding the age limit *cough* mature content*cough*. Like I really need more reminders of how little I can do because I'm not 18. And damn it I'm close, but not close enough. Personally the concept of censorship pisses me off to end, but thank fucking America. Whatever this is a worthless not to mention overdone rant.

Point being I have a new account, so I can VIEW my favorites and maybe POST stuff that I can't draw because I'm just a baby! (Nevermind I have already taken an art class in community college, and guess what I get to draw...naked people!)

I WILL NOT ABANDON THIS ACCOUNT, because goddamnit I will still need it when I do finally turn 18.

New acount because dA sucks...yeah I said it!

Ok so I noticed last week that I reached over 1,000 pageviews. I intended to draw a picture celebrating it. However since school has started so has my workload and of course the marching band season. (not sure if anyone really cares anyway.) If I do get around to it, not likely at this rate, then it won't be for awhile and the moment will be lost.

Since I likely won't do that I'm thanking the five people who probably caused that number. lol.